Mindset I was in for 30+ years

You can't pay me any amount of money to go back to the mindset I was in for 30+ years

There is so much more than the physical weight change in this side by side
While some might only see the physical change, I promise it goes so much deeper than that

The mental and spiritual weight as well as the emotional weight I was carrying, was heavier than the physical, yet so many choose and have been programmed to focus on physical only

I see all the layers of the change and the deep healing that has taken place that created the physical change and it honestly still brings me to tears

Let me explain what I mean :)

On the left, I was trapped and it was heavy, painful and exhausting in many many ways

I hid and changed myself to please others

I felt I wasn't enough until I got others approval

I felt I had to constantly prove my worth to others

I drained myself and people pleased in fear of abandonment I waited for permission and craved others support and belief I believed I had to struggle and sacrifice myself for others That I was responsible for others and their thoughts because my body was bad and a weapon That I was unsafe to be seen or heard That if I was how they wanted, I wouldn't be judged or abused That it was easier and safer to be quiet and unseen That dreaming was childish because the world was only full of limitations and lack I was always the victim and numbed and suppressed my pain with food I also used food to abuse and punish myself while at the same time was terrified of it I let others, industries and organizations control how I felt about myself and what I was capable of

I obviously know this is not true at all now and I am constantly reminded how far I have come and the evolution I have gone through in such a short time. (not only mentally and emotionally but obviously physically as well) I am so fucking proud of myself and what I have done and who I have become again and then again and then again :)

Now, on the right, I live in dreams, ease and freedom

I show people of all ages, all around the world, what is in fact possible for them and their bodies

I let people love me or not, stay or leave

but their choice does not affect my choices and how I feel about me I fully support, value and believe in me I feel free in my soul and mind and move easily I have freedom and peace of eating whatever, whenever I honor my emotions and choose me over others expectations and judgements I have the freedom of being me, loving me, knowing I am enough I know I don't have to prove myself or convince anyone of anything I feel lightness in my mind and body knowing I dont have to be anything different or else ......

People can believe what I have done or not I really could care less but honestly you are missing out if you aren't playing in my world :)