You are allowed to heal and stay healed!

The first year after I released 100lbs someone texted me "are you still skinny" and that triggered the fuck out of me.

It spiraled me into a dark mental space of "what they think I did was a fluke"
"they don't trust me and the work I am teaching" "they expect me to gain it all back" "does everyone think this way" "are people watching and waiting for me to just gain it all back" "does everyone think I'm a fraud" and so much more.

With all that I was playing with in my head the week that text came through, I found myself emotionally eating again, my clothes fitting tighter and I realized I was just giving proof to that vicious cycle.

That even if some people are doing and thinking those things about me, I realized that is the cycle society is used to and I didn't want to play into it anymore.
The yo-yo, lose gain-lose gain, that I had experienced so much before my healing journey. 

It's sad it's expected and that expectation is heavy to live out that cycle, as I literally have felt eyes watching me, as they wait to see over the past few years if I will fall back into this cycle. 

Some wanting me to do so to make themselves feel better about their insecurities
Some wanting me to do so to give them reasons to keep sabotaging 
Some wanting me to do so to give them the proof that healing isn't possible for them
Some wanting me to do so to prove that a good thing can't last, so no point in trying
Some wanting me to do so because they just hate me and don't want me to heal and thrive

But I have decided, several times, again and again when this comes up, that I won't fall into that cycle!
I choose to continue to heal and move forward

You are allowed to heal and release weight
You are allowed to thrive when you release that weight you have healed
You are allowed to thrive and not gain it back
You are allowed to stay skinny :)

If you want to believe you will gain it back, fine.
If you want to believe there is no use trying because you connect to the yo-yo cycle, your choice.
If you want to believe that healing isn't possible and want to see proof of that, you won't get that from me.

I am proof that you can heal, keep healing and keep moving forward without picking back up the pain of the past

Reach out if you are ready for me to show you :)

Love Aimee,
The Body Whisperer