"I can't imagine how hard that was for you"

5.30.24
My husband said this morning "I can't imagine how hard that was for you working on what you did around food because food is always around"

I told him I cried more times than I can count while making food and snacks for our 5 kids. Countless times when I desperately wanted to numb, suppress, and self punish with food but I knew I was not physically hungry. And I couldn't run away, I had to be in the kitchen making food

It of course was hard, a constant battle with myself
and no of course I was not perfect, but I was persistent

and oh my gosh being on the other side of it now, I see how fucking brave and strong I was and I am so dang proud of myself!